Monday, July 31, 2006

My Odyssey-A Spell

What does it feel like? That is what docs, friends, and family all want to know. Well, here it is the cut and dry of my existence.

Pro athletes talk about being in the zone: the point where the crowds, the coaches, the contracts and the pressure all fade away. A point where the game’s existence becomes so sharp and bright it eclipses the world’s existence. It is similar for me during a spell, only with negative results instead of a ticker tape parade.

It may start in several ways: a small amount of exercise, an extra heartbeat, some stress, or even entering a warm room. Though I never run a fever, my body radiates heat. My insides are an oven on low. The world closes in, and no longer can I concentrate on TV, conversation, etc. My palms and feet become clammy beyond any point I have ever seen them. My feet leave puddles of sweat on my flip-flops. It feels as if my heart rate is racing upwards; yet, my pulse rate remains normal. Like being in a sauna, I cannot draw a full breath. The doctors say my blood-oxygen level remains high and my respirations rise only slightly. Chest tightness is the least bothersome symptom; though, it feels as my torso has been bound by rope. Sometimes, I become a lightheaded or a little nauseous. These last symptoms occurred more frequently in the early spells than in the recent ones.

For hours, the spell continues: symptoms rising and falling. Moments of health are immersed with thoughts of immediate doom.

During this time, Israel fights in Lebanon; Talent campaigns; families eat at Ted Drew’s; people live their lives. I cannot see past my sweating hands.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Second Week Anniversary…

So far so good. For the second week in a row, I have not had a spell that sent me to the hospital. That is a pretty good winning streak, one any ball team would envy.

I have had small spells--one that spooked me. I am not cured. In fact, I am no longer working and processing the request for disability. I have an appointment with a doc tomorrow.

But for fourteen blessed days, I have been outside of the hospital. Praise the Lord for this victory.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Cutting Class, One of the Simplest Joys in Life…

I am not talking about cutting class, because I overslept, was hung over, forgot about it, or loathed the Prof. I am talking about the spur of the moment cut. The game time decision that I would not go to class sometimes made within sight of the building.

It was cutting class not to do something better, but to do something else. Occasionally, the cut would include friends and we may or may not have gone somewhere. However, it was never planned. The cut was fulfilling no schedule or plan.

Taking a nap, watching Law and Order or reading were how I spent the time. Some would call it doing nothing. Doing nothing, it may have been, but it was my time.

It was my time I had gathered back from others, my time to do as I pleased. It was not the weekend or the evening, time that was assigned to mew. It was my time stolen back from responsibility.

Now, with work/illness (especially the illness), I cannot cut anymore. I cannot take back the time and make it my own. I am forced to life in the assigned me time.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Mt. Ali-Shan Tea, Possibly the Best Gift…


Growing up in the South, tea was rarely drunk hot. Usually, it was served over ice heavily sweeten with lemon. The best tea was sun tea simply made by putting water and tea bags in the sun all day. It tasted good with strong bite covered by a sugar after-taste.

During an illness, was the only time tea would be served hot at home. It kept the lemon, but the sugar was replaced by honey.

Growing up, the one place that always served hot tea was Chinese restaurants. It came in cups with only two gulps of tea, and the first thing I did after being served was to add a bag or two of sugar.

For me, that was tea as a kid. Growing up, I could not understand why the British and Chinese loved tea so much. Hadn’t they ever tasted a cup of fresh brewed coffee? Folgers’s crystals were better than any tea I ever had.

Before Taiwan, I tried tea with cream, drank loads of green tea in college and graduate school. But tea was still something with little taste that made a mess when I moved the bag from the cup. To tell the truth, I drank tea over coffee, because it had less of a caffeine rush.

Tea in Taiwan is part of the culture, like beer in red states and gin in blue states. It felt like as soon as I landed someone was offering me tea. The Hawaiians have lays; the Taiwanese have cups of hot liquid.

My first and many a cup came at a roadside dinner with dumplings. The tea was hot and sweet. Sweeter than any back home, with the exception of my grandmother who makes instant tea with a ratio of one cup of sugar to half a cup of tea. Unlike the Lipton tea of the South, this tea was strong and loaded with caffeine. Like a double expression at 5 a.m., the tea shocked my body out of jet lag. No wonder, the British and Chinese drank this in the morning. It was an alternative fuel source.

The longer I stayed the differences in tea became apparent. There was the American Lipton brand, which no one on the island nation would think of serving. Green teas and flower teas, which looked like potpourri to the Yankee eye, were clean and crisp used to relax after a long day or walk. There was the thick black tea served at roadside dinner and most tables at home. Then there was the ‘in’ tea of the moment. The tea that was served to guest as an honor and never seen in any of the roadside stands I ate at: oolong.

Oolong has a rich taste without the bitter endings. Caffeine filled, but not the point of exhaustion. The best of the best was high mountain oolong tea. Grown in temperatures that required a jacket, the high mountain tea was worthy of its reputation. Many a person was willing to pay top dollar just for a small cup.

I was a man without a tea making pot. I was ignorant of the proper way to make tea, and the tea I did purchase quality was barely above the roadside stand variety. I enjoyed being a guest in homes and the teas other teachers brought in, simple because I could not get a decent cup on my own.

On teacher appreciation day, one of my classes gave me a can of Mt. Ali-Shan high mountain oolong tea. Mt. Ali-Shan was the closest mountain to Chia-yi. Thousands of tourists each year took the train ride up to witness the sunrise and sunset with snow beneath their feet. My students’ gift of tea from there was not only a gift of local flair, but also the best of it.

The color of the first cup was tan. At first, I thought I had not brewed it long enough. The cheap drink I was used to came to a dark brown in the same amount of time. I sipped cautiously. It tasted good. I went for a larger drink. Smooth with an almost creamy after taste, this was the best tea I had ever had.

Before long, I was drinking cups of it a day. I did not use the traditional Chinese saucers, but American coffee cups. A cup every class, at least; plus, several in between. I shared it with all, but secretly hoped no one would ask for seconds.

I left the tea in the office. Just one of the forgotten items left during the SARS escape. The Camelot of drinking Ali-Shan tea while grading papers or answering e-mails is gone. Every time, I am in a Chinese grocery store, I look for it. As the song says, “I still haven’t found what I’m looking for.”

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

One of the Hardest Things I Know and Accept

During my illness, I have my church, pastor, and loads of Christian friends and family praying for me. This is good.

I also have my Muslim and Jewish friends praying for me. I appreciate their intent. Yet, I am sadden by the fact that though they hunger and strive for a relationship with God under their current faith it will not happen. This, for me, is the hardest fact of Christianity.

The virgin birth, the resurrection, the flood, Jonah and the fish, even the end of the world are all easier on my mind. They are all easy to accept once one accepts the idea of God. For if, there is an all-powerful God, then why would anything be unachievable? He is God, after all.

Christianity differs from other religions by the way to achieve perfection/union with God is not through our own actions. In fact, we can do nothing to better our stay. It is the love of God has for us that draws us into Him, His love to send His Son to save us from evil.

Many, including myself, have asked if He loves us so much why would He let anyone suffer or face eternal damnation? O.K. maybe we can accept that bad people will be punished. Hitler, Stalin and all the obvious dictators can go to hell along with child murders, etc. What about people of the Jewish faith (They are after all His people), Muslim, Buddhists or other faiths are they not striving to be good and, more importantly, searching for Him?

It goes back that we all have freedom, a choice in life. Angels, animals, cells and even the universe must obey/worship Him. Humans can do as we please. We can follow His word, follow our own ideas, or follow nothing. It is our choice.

When we reject Him and His Son and find other ways to heaven and Him that is when we foul. For me, it is painful, physically and emotionally, to watch people practice other faiths. To witness people wanting a relationship with Him, yet, because of sin and our free will, they are putting their souls at risk is depressing. (Actually, I can think of no word in the English language to describe the emotion of loss I feel for those.)

Now, the new question, for me, is how do we reach those firmly integrated in their practiced religion? How do we proclaim the Gospel? How do we do it in manner that is not boastful or full of pride?

Things I Miss (and i can never have again)…


The list is in no particular order.

10. Mt. Ali-Shan tea given to me by my students.

9. Cutting class.

8. Rooming with J.

7. Coffee at 5 a.m. at MoJo’s on no sleep

6. Beer with my grandfather

5. The electricity of the green room after a standing o

4. Wayne Gretsky’s Hockey with T, N, P and C

3. Summers at Port Royal

2. Sharing a Dr. Allen class with K and A

1. Friday night at Joe’s Place


Due to maturity, death, age and even geographic locations all of these little Camelots are gone.

Monday, July 24, 2006

One-Week Anniversary, Yippee!…

Not many people celebrate one-week anniversaries. Junior High daters, newlyweds and people with babies probably round out the whole list.

I am sure the newly retires, marines just back from Iraq think about what they were doing a week prior, but celebrate it?

Yesterday was my one-week anniversary since I went to the ER and had a major spell. I did not have cake or punch. It was just another day. Another day filled with extra heartbeats, shoulder pain and two naps to ward off what I felt were the beginnings of an attack.

One week and counting.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

The Most Frustrating Part of It All…


Is that sometimes I feel fine. I catch myself sitting or walking down the hall, and I feel like I did two and a half months ago. To write the overused cliché, it is like coming out of a dream. I ask myself: why am I here, why am I still at my parents’ house, why do I think that I am sick.

These moments can last from 10 minutes to several hours. Inevitable, I want to stand up and go home. The past few months appear not have happened. It was if a bad fantasy has ended, and I have returned to normal programming.

I am past the joy I used to experience when I feel fine. At one point, I actually jumped thrilled my suffering was over. Now, I no longer have the exuberance or optimism. At some point, an episode, small or large, or extra heartbeat occurs then I am back to square one.

What makes it frustrating is I can never fully enjoy the moments. They always end all too quickly

Friday, July 21, 2006

Patiently Waiting, How is it Done?….


Every time someone tells me they or a close family member are awaiting the results of a cancer test, I wonder how.

How someone goes through a weekend or even several business days with it hanging over them. Would not every moment be twisted with concern? Every thought must be centered on it. Would not sleep be the only escape and then maybe not even then?

Even if the results were positive and treatments were to be done, at least, the waiting would be over. There could be some closure and knowledge of what was making them ill.

I have always dealt with my condition relatively well, I believe. I tried to be conscious of it; yet, not let it control my life. These last few months though everything has changed. I am patiently waiting for a cure that may never come or a diagnosis that may never be clear.

As the docs like to say, ‘do to your special anatomy.” It means most of what I experience is somewhat a learning experience for them and me.

In an odd way, I am still waiting the question. The docs have the answers; they believe. If only my body would start behaving with correct questions, it would be easier.

If only my left ventricle looked worse or my blood pressure/blood oxygen level rose and fell dramatically or my lungs became congested or my gallbladder hardened or I retained fluid, then answers would be forthcoming.

Monday, July 17, 2006

What I Should and Should Not Be Doing….

“99 and in a suit,” my mom says driving me to yet another doctor’s office.

I frown. It should be me in the suit. I should be the one struggling against the heat with sweat forming under my arms and on the small of my back. I should be taking off my coat in search of relief, loosing my tie with a job to do, a place to contribute.

Maybe, it would not be in St. Louis.

Maybe, it would be in a tiny Iowa town forgotten even by the politicians. A place where the drugstore, meat market and bar/bowling alley are the only establishments open.

Maybe, it would be on a farm in Illinois. Out of the corner of my eye, I would watch the cattle graze as the donor spoke about his joy in spreading the Gospel.

Maybe, it would be in a log cabin in Oregonian woods. My car splashed with mud sitting under the never-ending shade of pine trees.

Maybe, it would be in Seattle. Driving back to the hotel, I would fantasize about tea/sushi dinner.

Maybe, it would be in the mountains of Idaho. A place I have never been, but need to be.

Wherever, it is I just want to produce.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Just Two Men Talking in a Coffee Shop…


“The Middle East is on fire.” M shakes his head.

I nod while watching yet another new barista as she tries to mix my French soda

“I have my baby in this world. And I worry for her. What type of world is this that she will grow up in?” M asks me; his eyes pleading. He has come to America for a better life. He left his family and native land for a chance at something better. Now, he watches his region go up in flames, live over broadband.

Using Xs as states, M draws a quick map of Middle East on a post-it note. “Here is Iran. Here is Iraq with the British and Americans. Here is Syria. Here is Lebanon. Here is Israel. All on fire.”

“It’s no good. You know Clinton had a peace offer on the table where there would have Palestinian state and Arafat turned it town.”

“No, he was stupid. They will keep fighting, because the whole roadmap is gone. The whole roadmap is destroyed.” M corrects the barista on the way to make my drink.

“Jimmy Carter,” I begin.

“Jimmy Carter will go down in history as a great man,” M interrupts. “He got Israel and Egypt, the two biggest military powers, to peace. That dramatically eased a lot of tension. Now, ever since George Bush became President, he has done nothing. He has sent no envoys. For six years, the whole process is broken down.”

“America should do something.” I sound like a schmuck stating the obvious.

“There are no great leaders anymore. Clinton, Carter.”

“Sadat.”

“Yes, Sadat. Now all we have are idiots: President of Iran an idiot, Prime Minister of Israel an idiot, King of Jordan an idiot, King of Saudi Arabia an idiot, President of America…” M throws up his hands. “We need leaders.”

Friday, July 14, 2006

Three Things Not in My Life Two Months Ago…


1. Zuma

2. Party Poker

3. Ryszard Kapuscinski’s writing.

Oh yeah, and a fear of walking forty feet. But I like the first three.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Freedom at the Blackberry Café, Sort of…

Boom-bum-boom-bum-boom…. The day destroys the night, night divides the day… The Doors cause everyone to break into repressed dance. M, the owner, moves his shoulders as he prepares humus. E, the barista, sways her hips as she teaches the new lady how to make an espresso. The barista in training practices her craft while she nods her head to beat. I tap the counter and whisper the words along with Morrison.

Coming to Blackberry Cafe has become a nightly ritual. An opportunity to get out of my parents’ house, drive, listen to the radio, pick up a French soda, just a slice of freedom in my road to recovery.

M greets me with a huge hug. Our history together goes back to when I was a longhaired graduate student and he an employee of the former owner. If this were a normal evening, M and I may spend an hour discussing politics, news, and our families.

“See I told you, you would be fine.” M releases me out of his embrace.

“Getting better each day,” I smile and grab a muffin for breakfast the next day.

“You look good, really.”

“Thank you. How is your daughter?”

“Can you believe it she will be 5 soon.” M walks back to the kitchen.

“Time flies; I remember when she was learning to walk.” (Can I be that old?) I shout back at him.

E patiently shows the new barista how to make a French soda. The young barista splashes soda, syrup and foam over both the bar and back counter trying to master switching the drink from one cup to another and back again.

For some reason, I want to tell my story. I want to explain to E, the new barista, and everyone in earshot why I was here. Why I came in night after night. Why I order everything to go and never stay. Why I dress in warm-up pants and an old t-shirt, the same from last night. Why I was not a loser and this, my sole form of socialization. Or maybe, I just want to try to get sympathy from E. Or maybe, I have no goal in mind and just want to say something.

“I just had heart surgery.” I motion to M trying to explain the hug and compliments.

“I’m still recovering at my parent’s. That is why I come here. It is my little escape. A chance to get out other than work.” I ramble on, but do stop myself before I completely drone on.

“Wow,” E says, and the new barista nods.

They have the stunned look almost all do when I tell them of my condition. The face that says, ‘that sucks, you don’t look at death’s door. you are small, but I would have never thought this.’

“Well, you look good.” E says what almost all do. It is the generic compliment that they do mean, but sounds empty after the hundredth time.

“Thanks,” I take my drink, pay, and leave.

Today, I regret telling them. I put E and everyone in an awkward position. I never know what to say to someone who is seriously sick; why should I demand others come up with words for my problems? Why should I expect them to show new ways of caring I cannot? Also, is it worse to look like a loser who has no friends or a sad sick boy? Either way, you come up short. Maybe, I should have stayed a loser at least then some better clothes and a nicer car I could be redeemed. A sick boy is always a sick boy. It never escapes you, ever.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

What A Political Party Name Means….


Joe Lieberman made a great first impression on me. In late summer of 2000, he and VP Al Gore fly into St. Louis for a rally. Ol’ Joe looked like everybody’s favorite grandpa: kind, generous, and a Spiritual man. The type of Joe you could see on the street corner giving candy to kids. He cracked a joke with word damn in his speech. It was witty and shocking at the same time. He was a VP candidate who swore in public, but not offending anyone or directed at anyone. You could almost imagine him reading to his grandchildren before slipping out to have a whiskey at the bar.

Then we lost.

Then this nice old grandpa lost connection to reality. He aged mentally. Like many grandpas, his wit was gone, and he wandered around in a daze. During the 2004, Presidential race he had Joementum while Kerry, Edwards surged in Iowa. This nice grandpa was still living in the days you could ignore Iowa and win big in New Hampshire.

Then I stopped paying attention.

For me, he became a Democratic Senator who would never win the big one, never be VP, maybe a low cabinet post in his aging years. Overall a guy who will vote with you most of the time, and when he does not he will be doing that rare act of bi-partisanship. It may piss me off when Democrats reach across the aisle, but I respect them for thinking of the country’s well being over the party’s.

I have tried to avoid the Connecticut Senate race. Senator Lieberman vs. Lamont. Sure, I do not agree with everything Lieberman does. If Lamont wins the nomination and then the GOP wins the Senate seat, it will be another example of how lib-labs snatched defeat from the hands of victory.

For me, the logic is simple. We need all the seats we can get if we are to retake the Senate why blow a sure thing because you do not agree with everything Lieberman does? News flash: Lamont will do things you do not agree with.

I digress from my point. Last week, Senator Lieberman announced that if he looses the Democratic nomination he will still run as an independent. The name of the party will be Connecticut for Lieberman. I think that’s wrong. Maybe, I am no position to question, and maybe, I am making a big deal out of nothing.

Connecticut for Lieberman sounds like the state is working for him. Shouldn’t it be Lieberman for Connecticut? Isn’t he there to serve the people? Is he not their representative?
No matter what his party’s name, he is better than a Republican is.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Waitin on the Fizz-Life’s New Catch Phrase….

After yet another doctor appointment, I stopped by Blackberry Cafe. An old haunt, I spent most of time in graduate school there reading the intellectual history of the Whig Party and surviving off humus and green tea.

My anxiety, which had been down in previous days, rose as I became stuck in traffic getting there. Deep breathes and talking to the barista as she made my French soda calmed me down. Well, at least to the point I could get in the car and drive home. Close enough to see normal, but miles away from it.

Blackberry has one of the best French sodas in St. Louis. The difference between Blackberry and all other cafes is at Blackberry the baristas take the time to blend the club soda and syrup by shaking the drink martini style. The result is the syrup becomes mixed with club soda; instead of down at the bottom of the cup.

This also produces a lot of extra foam from the soda. Several times while she made the drink, the barista had to stop and explain she was, “waitin on the fizz.”

I smiled. The phrase made a lot of sense to me. One of my doctors had been talking about how I had to just take it slow with this anxiety.

“Don’t try and rush to do everything. It is ok not to do some stuff. Instead of saying, you have to do this by today. Say, I want to do to this by the end of the week.”

I think that is what she said, probably, not an exact quote. It is something many people have told me: my parents, workers at their condominium, friends, etc.

I am beginning to think that they are right. Obviously, I am not back to normal. For one thing, I have money left at the end of a weekend. Nevertheless, I am getting back. Instead of always embracing Less Yacking More Whacking way of life. I need to slow down at be content waitin on the fizz.

Monday, July 10, 2006

World Cup Final, Parent’s Living Room…

Two months after my small procedure, I am still recovering. Translation is: I still feel horrific: shortness of breath, anxiety, extra heartbeats, and general torso pain. All of these wonderful symptoms still confine me to my parent’s home for the better part of the week. I do make it out for such social events as appointments with doctors, checking the mail at my house and picking up prescriptions at the pharmacy.

France and Italy played the World Cup final to millions, perhaps, billions around the globe watching. I watched it in my parent’s living room having popular sporting fare as water, water crackers, and banana nut bread.

In the past month, I have learned little about soccer. In fact, I have actually lost respect for the game. When the World Cup started: I was excited to learn about a sport that fascinates the whole world, except America. I learned the following.

A one-one tie in hockey is thrilling; in soccer, it is just boring. In fact, since most games have few shots on goal, the whole game is watching a team move the ball twenty yards and then loose control.

All players are wimps. I am not saying I can run as much as them. They are in a state of physical fitness that is replicated in David. But step on their foot or slightly touch them and they roll on the ground in agony.

The injuries are faked to get fouls and time out. Now, I compliment those who flop in the NBA, but at least have a reason to fall. After you fall, stop acting like a baby, and get up.

The referees are poor. Once every four years, the world comes together to play this game, and FIFA hires these guys. Everyone complained about them. In the NBA, MLB, or NFL, they would be fired. In soccer, they are invited back next time. If this is the best soccer can offer, I will quit my job and become a soccer referee.

Finally, well that is actually it. I did enjoy watching the world come together, seeing fans of every nation celebrate victories, cheering for the underdogs, hearing that the Ivory Coast stopped its civil war for the game. However, next time the world chooses a sport to play can it be basketball?

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Meandering Thoughts and Fears Late at Night…


Last night, I lay on my back with my hands folded on my stomach. My left leg crossed over my right. My chest was still sore from the previous day’s eco. My heartbeat rose and fell with adrenaline rushes. Hopefully, the changes made to the pacemaker on Monday will help. I believe they have.

My position in bed copied how I lay on doctors’ tables waiting their examination. Over the years, I have learned to clear my schedule for these appointments. The stress of visiting a doc can be enough; I do not need to try to be anywhere anytime soon. I try to wait patiently. I try to be cheerful and pleasant. I try. I do not always succeed. But I try. I hope the staff understands I try.

My brain drifted towards sleep. I remembered how happy I was to wait for the dentist when I was in elementary school. My mom would always schedule my appointments in the morning, and depending on the wait, I would miss Religion and possibly Math.

I became sad that those days were gone. It was fun to smile and wait knowing you classmates were subjected to a quiz or lecture. Then I became frighten. Frighten that I would never have the joy of not entering a doctor’s office and it being a life-threatening thing. I was sad my childhood was over and scared that my self-sufficient one was as well.

I hope the doctor made the right change.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Morning Time on the Small Island Nation….

It’s 7:00 a.m. and already hot. I push back the sheet moist with another night’s sweat. The AC is at maximum strength. Two mesquites pushed their way through the screen during the night and are eyeing me from the ceiling.

Wash the sleep out of eyes, I am careful not to drink any of the water. Through the open window above the shower, I can hear the students joking, yelling or screaming in Mandarin and swearing in English.

C is reading his Bible at the kitchen table. I make my morning tea as D reports he drowned another rat before I got up.

“Wake me; I’ll do it next time.” I tell him. He won’t. He’ll drown the rat before his wife or I wake up.

D and I walk to the office together. Students sweep the dirt in front of us. An endless task, they will never sweep the soil off the ground or break the military officer who punishes them.

V’s boyfriend brought her flowers, and she is showing them off to everyone at the office. They are daisies and smell nice. I smile as she positions them our computer desk.

The papers for J2-A still need to be graded. J2-F still needs a lesson plan.

Twenty-minutes later, nothing has been accomplished. Papers have been moved, but little work was done.

D waves as he leaves for class. I make another cup of tea. V admires the flowers.

This Sounds A Lot Like One Presidential Contender I Know….

I was enjoying my breakfast yesterday and reading the St. Louis Post-Dispatch, and this editorial caught my attention. Guest columnist Jared Bernstein and Mark Greenberg discussed the initiative by Great Britain to eliminate childhood poverty by 2020. The article can be found here.

Two of the ways that the British have worked towards their goal is to increase both the minimum wage and the earned income tax credit. This along with providing health care for the children and their parents has allowed the British government to drop the childhood poverty rate 17%. During the same period, 12 to 13 million American children have been fallen or been born into poverty in the United States.

Granted, the British government did not meet its goal of reducing the poverty rate by 25% by 2005. Instead of crying foul that the goal was too high or unreasonable, government officials applauded the effort.

We asked what would happen if they did not end child poverty by the targeted date of 2020. The question didn't really interest them. The target, they argued, focused the minds of politicians, agencies and the public. Without it, they never would have gotten as far as they have. In fact, upon release of the news about missing the target, John Hutton, a Blair cabinet secretary, promised to "redouble" the government's efforts to hit it.

Bernstein and Greenberg end the article with a question that sounds a lot like one Senator is trying to do.

Is it even conceivable that we could ad0pt such a target here? Absolutely. In fact, a spate of recent news stories has pointed out that a major national party whose name begins with D is in desperate need of a big, unifying idea.

What's wrong with this one?

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Nighttime on the Small Island Nation…

It is near midnight in Taiwan. The streets of Taipei are still alive. Cars are stuck in traffic. Scooters zigzag around cars, pedestrians, and each other on the street and sidewalk. Venders yell out their sales to the masses. The fragrance of rice and cooked meats is in the air.

Three hours south, by car and train, in the city of Chia-yi, little is happening. A few cabbies are sleeping in their cars. Police patrol the empty streets. The main stores and shops are closed. Only, the whorehouses and 7-11 remain open.

My friends and I are on the roof of the office. J beat me in chess, again. Cuban cigars are passed around. C picks at the leftover potatoes from dinner and pours himself another cognac. B, R and A discuss their Chinese teacher.

On the way home, I pass rice fields: the moon reflecting off the rows of water. By sunrise, the farmers will be in them with little combines for harvest.

The humidity is thick in my room. I crank the AC. My bed is a double king and solid as a rock. I pull the sweat-filled sheets around my body.

Three hours north, a plane takes off for home. I stay here and am happy.